Is it true we are only human?
That we must crash and break down, fall and bleed,
as Christina Perri in this song says?
The promises of AA are as follows: If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are halfway through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity, and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
1 Timothy 1, Verse 5 - Now the purpose of the commandment is love from a pure heart, from a good conscience, and from sincere faith.
Psalm 24, Verses 4-5 - He that hath clean hands, and a pure heart; who hath not lifted up his soul unto vanity, nor sworn deceitfully. He shall receive the blessing from the LORD, and righteousness from the God of his salvation.
Matthew 5, Verse 8 - Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.
2 Timothy 2, Verse 22 - Flee also youthful lusts; but pursue righteousness, faith, love, peace with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.
When we get any kind of undesirable intrusive or anxious thought, and we don't want it to progress (or it shouldn't), what can be our plan then? Think action - How will I act and behave? Just because I am thinking about something bad doesn't mean I have to act on that thought, or say something out loud related to that thought. Act with purpose instead of reacting with little planning or logic; act with purpose instead of overreacting; act with purpose instead of being manipulative to gain something desirable that is not good for ourself or others. We are not to be just our human desires added up like Mt. Desire; we should lace our actions with spiritual truths. That is how one can lead a meaningful fulfilling life. So longterm - think spiritual strength - then right actions will more easily follow.
Why? We are SPIRITS and we are HUMAN. For some of us, our inherited or current conditions of a physical nature are not so good. Our spirits may also be weak and this is a problem.
For if we approach God with more spiritual mindsets, he will answer us and he will protect us as one of His children. Our spiritual self is more pure than our human self when it is strong. Strengthening our spiritual muscles is important to accomplish; it helps us to be confident instead of fearful and weak when facing the difficult and challenging. Often there is not much we can do to strengthen our human selves, as we may be bogged down with various natures - the reliance and strengthening of our spiritual selves is within our control. The AA Promises address those with a physical desire to drink, who overcome by dedication to spiritual truths. These promises are the same for anyone who overcomes the human self with the spiritual self. They speak loudly to me because I've had some addiction crises before and I have schizo-affective disorder - I must be spiritually strong.
Spiritual truths come from God and are relayed to us today from ancient people. They have been passed down to us, so acknowledge them with respect and study them with excitement. We also have an innate compass within our soul that may direct us when we are heavy in prayer, meditation, or pure in heart. We must seek God and we must seek to strengthen our spirit, for our human bodies will fail us without that component. Do this through study, fellowship, prayer, and by demonstrating your faith. Good action towards others will help ourselves heal and grow. This I promise will improve your life.
Dear God, I know I am burdened from time to time with intrusive and anxious thoughts. Somehow the help I need has come into my life when I needed directed to higher truths. I can identify spiritual strength and right action as my best allies - I see the pattern throughout my life and in others. I am focused now on achievement for the next 6 months - because if I am achieving the right things others will benefit - I see this as Your will for my life. Forgive me for my past when I have easily bled when I fell down, or created my own Mt. Desire because I gave in to human nature and was spiritually weak. My heart has been pure, but my heart has been dirty black - I ask you to restore my heart always and that you never leave my side. I am God fearing, but I am also fearful of many things from time to time - send your Spirit to quell those anxieties. Peace, Love and Amen, Michelle.
The author can be reached at firstname.lastname@example.org.